Basement ; u;

I kind of keep forgetting I have this blog, too busy trying to die and stuff. But the Man in Grey came to me and said that he finally has something for me to do. I'm supposed to find a girl named Rowan and get her journal. Apparently the journal is very important or something and contains details that would cause his undoing if fallen into the hands of runners.

So apparently Rowan lives in Antwerp. Why does the entire world revolve around Belgium all the sudden?

Christ.

Anyway, I went to the place where she lives and apparently she was expecting me because she shot me in the face, dragged my body into her basement and left me there.
It didn't kill me, but I was unconscious for a bit

The basement is locked but I found a computer, although a bit old(running windows 98 for gods sake).

I guess I'm stuck here for the time being.

*sigh*

Fucking time travel everywhere!

Look at this being right here, thats right this lil thing right here. Looks innocent enough, let me tell you about this fucking thing. Since my only existence seemed to be waiting around for the Man in Grey to give me orders I felt like just doing something productive, so I went ahead and enrolled in a computer class because why not?

Yeah, why the freak not. First of all I entered the wrong class room which happened to be a class about safe sex. Yeah, that was awkard.

I don't think anything has been this awkward since my first time with Alicia (sorry Ali XD you've got to admit)

When I finally found the right room everything around me became black with green squiggly lines around me and this fucking thing shows up out of the blue.

"Céline..."

That's all it said, thats all it fucking said before it made my entire body sort of, I don't know...glitch.
Could that be it?
Like I started developing eyeballs and extra limbs randomly.

"Céline, mission"

WHAT FUCKING MISSION.

Do the fears have to be vague about everything?
For fucks sake.

Sorry, I know I'm usually angsty but this is just pissing me off.

Then everything went back to normal, but it was midnight as supposed to 2 pm like before that thing showed up and it was the 10th September.

I have no sense of time anymore, I keep being thrown around in it.
Just, seriously I want to just die already.
But I can't.

I simply can't.
Believe me...
...I've tried.

Alright...

I met a girl today, lovely young woman named Sharp. Yes that appears to be her name. I appear to be in Belgium still. She has dark hair, pale skin and wears a rather short mini-skirt, which I find rather attractive. I remember when I convinced Alicia to wear one of those, she looked so cute and sexy in it.

But enough of that, Sharp told me that my service is required. She said that the man in grey wished for me to do an assignment and since I made that deal, I'm kind of forced to. I literally couldn't say no, my mouth just wouldn't pronounce it, I became mute every time I wanted to.

So having no other option, I agreed. The assignment is to try to find a base of campers and try to extract information out of them. Apparently campers are part of a hivemind creature named EAT.
This should be all kinds of fun.

I leave you in the capable hands of the President of Pop, Justin Timberlake. I do like this song, at least I have music...makes my world a little bit brighter.

Dancing on dark clouds of despair

I'm not sure what to do now. I guess I'm bound to this grey suited man, whatever his name is but in all honesty I don't trust this guy for a second. He's one of those beings probably and I don't trust those further than I can throw them.

Everything is just crumbling.

I don't even know, just I want to curl up and die, but of course I can't.

This is how I feel, the grey man being the sheep.

Rebirth...it pains me.

As you may have gathered, I died.

But hey, I got better...or worse. When I fell down to the void I was met with a voice inside my head. It spoke to me.

"Céline, do you want this to be your fate?"

I didn't say anything, I didn't really have a comment since I was busy falling to my untimely death.

"Do you think this is the end of your story?"

I shook my head, tears still streaming down my chin.

"That's right, but I can give you another chance...another way out"

"What's that?"

"Make a contract with me. I'll rebirth you once you die in about 10 minutes and in exchange you will serve my purpose until I say its time for you to die, upon which I'll kill you...with style of course"

There was nothing I could really do. I felt like he was right, this wasn't the end...I wasn't done liking stuff, I wasn't done not liking stuff. I wasn't done in general, so in perhaps the worst mistake of my life I made the contract.

After I fell to the ground and broke my neck, I could feel myself slipping away into whatever celestial space is out there where dead people go. But then I felt like I was being sucked back in and I woke up, unharmed in a field somewhere here in Belgium...Antwerp to be specific.

After walking around for a bit I noticed that it was summer, it was really hot outside. It was August 1st. I guess he went with me there. After that all I encountered a Man with gray hair who seemed to know about me.

"Céline, dear...been waiting forever for you to wake up" he said and hugged me.

"You are?"

"Your new master of course"

I quickly realized that this was the being that made the contract with me. I was wondering what sort of stuff he was gonna make me do. I figured that perhaps he wanted me to kill someone or something, but such thing did not occur.

"What do you want me to do...eh master" I asked.

Saying master sounded just wrong to me, I don't know why but just gave me chills down my spine.

"Nothing at the moment, I'll contact you from time to time asking you to do various jobs and if you wanna stay alive I'd advise you to. Other than that, feel free to do as you please"

"I see"

"One more thing dear, I enhanced you a bit"

"Enhanced?"

"Yes, I gave you the ability to reverse time momentarily"

"Oh?"

"Yeah, just concentrate on it...practice a bit, you'll get the hang of it. Anyway, I have other matters to attend to, my mistress awaits me."

"Mistress?"

"Better if you not meet her...yet"

"eh...ok"

I don't know but I was getting a very weird vibe of this guy and then he just disappeared. It seems that my life has officially changed forever, no matter what he says.

This is not over, it will never be until the day he kills me.
Until then, I guess I'm not allowed to end my misery.
Although I'm conflicted to whether I want that or not.

A deal's a deal after all.